I think I’ve had the worst month ever and I’m not even exaggerating, not even slightly. Best way to describe this beast of a past few weeks is to list all grievances, every painful bit:
-Phone call with bad news, a very dear family friend passed away. I can’t make it to the funeral because A. I’m all the way on the other coast and B. Semester just began.
-Blizzard from Hades and in the mad dash to make my statics/materials course I leave behind the keys, roommates were gone by then and wouldn’t return until past 6pm which means I can’t go home between classes which means I wont be going home until past 10pm. DOH!
-I made it to my class only to be hit with an unexpected test. Shit!
-Printer ran out of ink and just seconds before I grab that specific cartridge, a couple beats me to it. Damn you Best Buy!
-In the middle of a test I get the worst stomach cramps ever, the kind where all you want to do is curl under a desk for a bit until the stabbing pain goes away. In case you haven’t figured it out, I’m one of those million that’s uninsured and yes I value my health and feel uneasy about this fact, but I also have more bills than I care to list and the insurance offered by school has yet to be processed so I’m kinda stuck for the time being.
-I can’t get paid for another two weeks even though I’ve been working for a month now, silly of me to think there was only ONE time sheet. Bureaucracy blah!
-I looked like an ass because my internet was down for days and I did not have the time to get to the lab for accessing/scanning/printing the pre-employment application online before going to interview #1.
-Condescending, elitist, and apathetic instructors are the worst. Just because you had a teaching gig at Cooper Union does not mean you have the right to look down on me and my inability to purchase the required $300 steel manual text by the next class. Unlike others I don’t have a money tree perched on my window sill hmmmph
-tensions at home.That’s all I’m going to say about that.
-Persistent sore throat/cough is going on month 2 now. WTF
-Financial aid is giving me the run around, I got hit with the remaining tuition balance and unless I sacrifice food or offer my soul to the gods for the remaining semester I’m not sure how it will get paid.
-I need to buy 2 other textbooks totaling yet another $300.
-Got hit with a jury summons for the city of Philadelphia even though I now live in Brooklyn. I’m sure there’s a warrant out in my name somewhere and that’s really ok by me it’s the least of my worries.
-Ridiculously annoying next door neighbors were playing movies at IMAX decibel levels, seriously people 3am on a Monday don’t you guys work or something? Not just Monday but pretty much every day followed by fights.
-Lost my favorite interview shoes, and jewelry given to me by mom and best friend’s mom. Irreplaceable really.
-Lost my ATM card, and because I lost my card on a friday night I only have $5 cash to get me through till Monday, why oh why didn’t I withdraw more? FUCK!
-Got a fever and for days all I could stomach was water.
-Fever very likely attributed to food poisoning, explains why I can’t stomach anything-even fluids.
-Needless to say I went to class anyway, because I can’t afford not to go and also had exams many many exams.
-Mac Powerbook is on it’s last breath, my flashdrive is not working I think I’ve possibly lost all valuable info yet again.
-The one person I reached out to…well, best to keep that one to myself. Let’s just say I’m crushed and absolutely heartbroken and yeah absolutely heartbroken.
-A friend who will remain nameless, calls me and hits me with a long list of worries and stresses and complaints, only after wards does she think to ask how I’m doing. Love you girl but I’m in no mood or state of mind to hear about other peoples complaints because all I really need is a hug and some chocolate.
-Because of all the above I’ve lost much weight, transforming into a pale, feeble and thin version of myself. frightening truly frightening.
-insomnia came back. I know the cause and it’s so not worth it.
-Did I mention my heart just broke?
-so much more but will omit because I think I’ve made my point.
Also because I realize even with this fucked up month there’s much to be grateful for and I don’t have any right to complain because things could be far worse (I do, however, reserve the right to vent) I’ll end on a few redeeming positive notes:
-I rediscovered a friendship I never should have let go and it’s good to know I’m not judged by past mistakes but loved for being myself flaws and all.
-I look forward to traveling with said friend in December. Our choice locations in no particular order: Thailand, Brasilia+Rio de Janeiro, Jamaica+Havana, Greece+Cyprus+Turkey. Yeah we think big :)
-I aced the statics/materials test in spite of the lack of study time.
-Steven Holl lecture + Alejandro Zaera-Polo lecture = stimulating evenings, also I think I’m in love and completely smitten with Mr. Zaera-Polo (beauty brains and visionary thinker, me like-y) ^-^
